Mid life crisis of an Ohio Queen

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Calling all past, present and future pageant people

Long time no write. YIKES!! I have to keep up a little bit more.

I am asking for help from anyone who has association with pageants. I cannot disclose a lot just yet but I can ask for help.

When at a pageant or going to a pageant what are the photos that you mainly take? Is it before competition, during competition, after competition??? Any and all help will be appreciated.

Thanks for responding!!

Sunday, December 26, 2010

My Bucket List

Wow!! It has been an incredibly long time since I have written on here. Facebook and work have taken over my life!! Guess I will need to post on here more often or change to a new blog.

I have come to a decision for the new year. I need help with this so I implore on anyone willing to push and motivate me to do it. I have to create my bucket list. I want to have a list of things to do in my lifetime. The first that I want accomplished is this

I want to publish a book.

This has been something that I have wanted for as long as I can remember. I have never been good with writing but I can try. There is always room for improvement in life and this can be one way to do so.

I have thought long and hard on what to write about. Do I write on pageantry? No. I have had an extensive journey but do not consider myself an expert. I have learned to surround myself with experts in the field to help me accomplish my dreams. That would make a very short book. Do I write on Marketing? No. I am better giving the suggestions face to face.

So I have decided. I am writing a book on Secondary Infertility. This will not be a fact book. This will be a book facing the emotional journey that our family has undergone. The only help I need is to get in touch with a ghostwriter and to reach a publishing company and get the idea of how to start. I have to schedule this into my life to be sure that I can get it done but it is something that I am very willing to do. Maybe it can be used as a healing tool.

Any and all suggestions are welcome!!

I hope that everyone has a wonderful New Year filled with many promises...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Miss California has finally heard the words "YOU'RE FIRED!!!"

LOS ANGELES, Calif. -- Carrie Prejean has been stripped of her Miss California title.

"The Miss California USA Organization, in conjunction with the Miss Universe Organization and with the blessing of its owner, Mr. Donald J. Trump, announced today the termination of Carrie Prejean as Miss California USA 2009, citing continued breach of contract issues," the Miss California Organization said in a statement to Access Hollywood.

The group kicked the controversial beauty queen from her post due to "contract violations including Ms. Prejean's unwillingness to make appearances on behalf of the Miss California USA organization," the pageant's Executive Director, Keith Lewis, said in a statement.

Last month, Trump decided that Prejean would be allowed to keep her crown despite racy photos of the 22-year-old surfacing on the Internet. But Lewis claims that in the weeks that followed, the beauty queen did not step up to the plate.

"Since that time it has become abundantly clear that Carrie is unwilling to fulfill her obligations under our contract and work together," Lewis' statement continued.

Billy Bush broke the news to Prejean on Wednesday afternoon when he called her for Access Hollywood and "The Billy Bush Show."

"We've just found out from Keith Lewis, your executive director there, that it's official, they have put out a statement and you have been fired," Bush said.

"Well, that's the first that I know about that, Billy," Prejean said.

"Really?" he continued.

"Yeah. I was just talking to my lawyer and I just got a phone call from you and I've gotten some text messages saying 'Hey, is this really true?' and I said, 'True about what?' and they said, 'That you've been fired.' And I started to laugh because everyone's been cooperating and everyone's been getting along so well," she said. "This is the first that I've heard of it. This is funny to me. I have no idea what's going on."

Trump was also involved in Wednesday's dethroning, and leant his voice to her dismissal.

"I told Carrie she needed to get back to work and honor her contract with the Miss California USA Organization and I gave her the opportunity to do so," Trump said his statement. "Unfortunately it just doesn't look like it is going to happen and I offered Keith my full support in making this decision. Carrie is a beautiful young woman and I wish her well as she pursues other interests."

Miss Malibu Tami Farrell, who was the First Runner-Up, is now Miss California.

In addition to the semi-nude photo scandal, Prejean's reign as Miss California also created headlines at the Miss USA pageant in April after she answered a question from Perez Hilton regarding her stance on gay marriage. She said she believed marriage "should be between a man and a woman."

Shanna Moakler quit the Miss California Organization, where she had served as a co-executive director back in May after Trump let Prejean keep her crown. When asked last month by Access Hollywood's Billy Bush if she would return to the group if Prejean quit, Moakler said she would.

"Absolutely," she said. "In a heartbeat.... It's not [a] 'her or me'[situation]. It's you... have to, at some point, make her take responsibility."

And on Wednesday, not long after the news broke, Moakler issued a statement to Access over Prejean's firing.

"First and foremost, my faith has been restored in the Miss Universe Organization and with Donald Trump. I believed eventually what I intimately knew would come to fruition," Moakler said.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Coming Around A Full Circle

A Circle Journal that is.....

I along with a group of other scrapbook junkies are participating in a circle journal. The purpose of this is to choose a subject that you want everyone to scrap about in your particular book. I chose family. I noticed that whenever you scrap a page about your family more love goes into it. I wanted to see that love on a page.

Then I realized how much of a circle my life has become. Not a bad circle. Just a circle. Everything is revolving around each other. Work, scrapbooking, school activities, Cub Scouts, etc.... At least once a week I have most of these occur then once a month the rest works its way in.

I cannot complain. It is a good circle. It could be a lot worse. I am taking what I have normal in my life and completely embracing it. It feels good to have some normalcy in a chaotic world. I have found that this year has brought a lot of change to my life but it has also brought new people into my life that I cherish. I have found that some of my prior relationships have changed dramatically and at first I was hurt and upset. But the more that I progress I notice the changes in myself too.

I love the people that I work with. I love my new scrapbooking buddies (but I need more Flexigirl scrapbooking time too). School activities have brought me to meet more people and watch my child grow and develop. Cub Scouts have brought us closer to more people that carry a lot of our family and faith values.

I have been lucky. And I appreciate what I have.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

The Search is On for Mrs. Ohio, Miss Ohio, and Miss Teen Ohio International 2009!

Here is information for the Ohio International Pageants. The deadline is quick approaching. It is April 4th. The competition is in May and it is a fabulous show and competition to be in. I should know!!!!!

This is my favorite pageant system (gee, I wonder why!!) and I encourage anyone who is eligible to compete in this spectacular event. It is definitely worth the experience!!

Join us for the Mrs. Ohio, Miss Ohio, and Miss Teen Ohio International Pageant this Spring… May 16th & 17th in historic & charming downtown Zanesville, Ohio!

Applications are now available, and contestants from throughout the Buckeye State are being accepted! The process for entering is easy! Simply visit our website (www.OhioInternational.com), download the Application Kit, and scroll down to FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions), where you'll find nearly every answer you could imagine. Also be sure to watch the 4-minute promotional video to learn more about our program. We keep our entry fees affordable, and we provide a magical weekend for the contestants and their families with a first-rate stage production.

Last year, the winner of each division earned a prize package valued at over $10,000 including: a full page feature in SuperModels Unlimited Magazine, paid entry to the International Pageant in Chicago, the official crown & banner, a smile make-over, modeling/photo shoots, jewelry, scholarships & prizes galore! The prize package for 2009 is growing, and it could be yours. PRIOR EXPERIENCE IS NOT NECESSARY. We offer workshops and professional assistance so that each contestant performs at her very best!

Areas of competition & age divisions: Teen 13-18 and Miss 19-29: Modeling fun fashion, fitness, & evening wear; personality interview.* Mrs. 21-56: Modeling evening wear & fitness wear; personality interview.* NOTE: No swimsuit or talent competitions! Commitment to community service through a platform issue is highly encouraged and required at the National level. The International Pageants have teamed up with the American Heart Association’s Go Red for Women.

Contact us today to get started! We’re the new Ohio International Pageant System, and we’re restoring the integrity and tradition of pageantry! E) Director@OhioInternational.com P) 740-819-3170

Monday, February 16, 2009

Holy Busy Weekends Batman!!!

This month is jam packed full of busy weekends!!

February 6 - 8

This was B's 7th birthday weekend!! I still cannot believe that he is 7 years old. I feel bad about not blogging on his birthday but we were spending quality time together and I think that mattered to him much more!! We had my family down from Bedford and a party that included 4 friends from school along with our neighbors and their kids (my adopt a nieces and nephew). It was a lot of fun but very exhausting...

February 13 - 15

B and I took off on Friday night to go to the Alumni Night basketball game at my alma mater. It was a great time for us as we included my brother and my niece to come along. Spent part of Valentines Day with my family and drove back to have the night with E. Sunday was a normal routine for us but a bonus for B was he had the chance to have a friend from class over.

February 20 - 22

I am going away on a scrapbooking retreat!! I have been looking forward to this for a few months now and have literally been packing for it since January. Just a little excited. The boys will be having a boys weekend and bonding time. That will be great for them both!

February 27 - March 1

I have a crop on Friday night and it is the first of many great fish frys at our church. Bring on Lent, I am ready!! We also have our Blue and Gold dinner for our Cub Scout pack on that Saturday and I think we will be going to an OSU hockey game that night. Should be lots of fun!!

I think things will die down in March but cannot be too sure of it. Busy is good so we will keep busy!!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

More Dreams... What Do They Mean????

I had an odd dream last night. I do not know why I had this dream but it is still very vivid for me today. Way too vivid.

So my dream was this. I was away at an amusement park with my family. I was sad but I did not know why. I remember laughing because my child was having a great time. At the amusement park I reconnected with a past acquaintance. We were connecting again and I remember feeling a little bit happier. When I returned from the amusement park I had discovered why I was sad. A person close to me had passed away. I was grieving and did not know it. And I was grieving hard. Then I realized in the paper that I was not the only one grieving. So was the acquaintance that I had seen at the amusement park. I met up with him at a store and we both lost it. We were crying and holding on to each other for dear life. Somehow we had a further connection and started to fall in love.

Next thing I knew we were at a beach swimming together and just being close in general. I remember feeling confident again and totally loved. A feeling I had lost when I had found out that the person I was close to had died. I still at this point cannot place who it was that had died.

Next thing I remember was being at his home and spending time with my child and his kids. They were not too fond of me and I was not too bothered by this. Heck, my in-laws can't stand me, why should I be phased that his kids did not care for me.

Then it hit me. The person that he had lost was his wife. And the person I had lost was my husband. From there I woke up.

So now I want to know what this dream means. There is a lot too it so I hope that I can follow it and get something from it too.

Back to dreammoods.com to figure out my dreams:

Amusement Park

To see or be in an amusement park in your dream, indicates that you need to set some time for leisure and more enjoyment in your life. Consider how everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of yourself. Alternatively, you may be too easily distracted lately.

To dream that you are in bereavement, suggests that you are repressing your grief. Perhaps something is bothering you more than you realize. You need to express your sadness and not keep it inside.

To see or be in a grocery or convenience store in your dream, suggests that you are emotionally and mentally strained. Alternatively, you may be brainstorming for new ideas or looking for the various choices out there for you. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on what is in "store" for you. And thus it could signify the inevitable.

To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy. To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.


To see your home in your dream, signifies security, basic needs, and values. You may be feeling at home at your new job or you finally feel settled and comfortable in a new environment. Alternative, the dream represents your basic needs and priorities.

In particular, to see your childhood home, your hometown, or a home that you previously lived in, indicates your own desires for building a family. It also reflects aspects of yourself that were prominent or developed during the time you lived in that home. You may experience some feelings or unfinished expression of emotions that are now being triggered by a waking situation.


To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state where you are longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting you innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.


To dream about hate, indicates repressed aggression and your fear of confrontations. On the other hand, you may forcing your views and opinions onto others. Consider the symbolism of other elements in the dream to find out what is it that you really hate.

Self Psychoanalysis Says.....

After reviewing all of my notes my dream is indicating that there is a lot going on emotionally and mentally and there are intense feelings that are not being expressed and possibly repressed. There are also strong needs and deisres to build a family. There is a need to explore aspects and look for new ideas. And time for enjoyment is needed. Time to relax and enjoy life.

This has been circling around a lot of things in my life. I am busy trying to build my career however the strong emotions that I have expreienced with the secondary infertility are getting to me. A lot has been eating at me and there are a lot of things that I need to learn in life.

This is probably the cheapest therapy session I have had!!