Holy Busy Weekends Batman!!!

This month is jam packed full of busy weekends!!

February 6 - 8

This was B's 7th birthday weekend!! I still cannot believe that he is 7 years old. I feel bad about not blogging on his birthday but we were spending quality time together and I think that mattered to him much more!! We had my family down from Bedford and a party that included 4 friends from school along with our neighbors and their kids (my adopt a nieces and nephew). It was a lot of fun but very exhausting...

February 13 - 15

B and I took off on Friday night to go to the Alumni Night basketball game at my alma mater. It was a great time for us as we included my brother and my niece to come along. Spent part of Valentines Day with my family and drove back to have the night with E. Sunday was a normal routine for us but a bonus for B was he had the chance to have a friend from class over.

February 20 - 22

I am going away on a scrapbooking retreat!! I have been looking forward to this for a few months now and have literally been packing for it since January. Just a little excited. The boys will be having a boys weekend and bonding time. That will be great for them both!

February 27 - March 1

I have a crop on Friday night and it is the first of many great fish frys at our church. Bring on Lent, I am ready!! We also have our Blue and Gold dinner for our Cub Scout pack on that Saturday and I think we will be going to an OSU hockey game that night. Should be lots of fun!!

I think things will die down in March but cannot be too sure of it. Busy is good so we will keep busy!!

More Dreams... What Do They Mean????

I had an odd dream last night. I do not know why I had this dream but it is still very vivid for me today. Way too vivid.

So my dream was this. I was away at an amusement park with my family. I was sad but I did not know why. I remember laughing because my child was having a great time. At the amusement park I reconnected with a past acquaintance. We were connecting again and I remember feeling a little bit happier. When I returned from the amusement park I had discovered why I was sad. A person close to me had passed away. I was grieving and did not know it. And I was grieving hard. Then I realized in the paper that I was not the only one grieving. So was the acquaintance that I had seen at the amusement park. I met up with him at a store and we both lost it. We were crying and holding on to each other for dear life. Somehow we had a further connection and started to fall in love.

Next thing I knew we were at a beach swimming together and just being close in general. I remember feeling confident again and totally loved. A feeling I had lost when I had found out that the person I was close to had died. I still at this point cannot place who it was that had died.

Next thing I remember was being at his home and spending time with my child and his kids. They were not too fond of me and I was not too bothered by this. Heck, my in-laws can't stand me, why should I be phased that his kids did not care for me.

Then it hit me. The person that he had lost was his wife. And the person I had lost was my husband. From there I woke up.

So now I want to know what this dream means. There is a lot too it so I hope that I can follow it and get something from it too.

Back to dreammoods.com to figure out my dreams:

Amusement Park

To see or be in an amusement park in your dream, indicates that you need to set some time for leisure and more enjoyment in your life. Consider how everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of yourself. Alternatively, you may be too easily distracted lately.
Bereavement

To dream that you are in bereavement, suggests that you are repressing your grief. Perhaps something is bothering you more than you realize. You need to express your sadness and not keep it inside.
Store

To see or be in a grocery or convenience store in your dream, suggests that you are emotionally and mentally strained. Alternatively, you may be brainstorming for new ideas or looking for the various choices out there for you. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on what is in "store" for you. And thus it could signify the inevitable.
Love

To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.
Swimming

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy. To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.

Home

To see your home in your dream, signifies security, basic needs, and values. You may be feeling at home at your new job or you finally feel settled and comfortable in a new environment. Alternative, the dream represents your basic needs and priorities.

In particular, to see your childhood home, your hometown, or a home that you previously lived in, indicates your own desires for building a family. It also reflects aspects of yourself that were prominent or developed during the time you lived in that home. You may experience some feelings or unfinished expression of emotions that are now being triggered by a waking situation.

Children

To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state where you are longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting you innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.
Hate

To dream about hate, indicates repressed aggression and your fear of confrontations. On the other hand, you may forcing your views and opinions onto others. Consider the symbolism of other elements in the dream to find out what is it that you really hate.

Self Psychoanalysis Says.....

After reviewing all of my notes my dream is indicating that there is a lot going on emotionally and mentally and there are intense feelings that are not being expressed and possibly repressed. There are also strong needs and deisres to build a family. There is a need to explore aspects and look for new ideas. And time for enjoyment is needed. Time to relax and enjoy life.

This has been circling around a lot of things in my life. I am busy trying to build my career however the strong emotions that I have expreienced with the secondary infertility are getting to me. A lot has been eating at me and there are a lot of things that I need to learn in life.

This is probably the cheapest therapy session I have had!!